Our LDR World

So, is this what we have, my love,
Is this our chosen way,
To stay in our LDR world,
Until another day?

Is it fear or obligation that keeps us so far away,
Or was it fate that sent me here too fast,
A test to see if our Love would last,
Separated by oceans and hemispheres,
Past lives, remembered, in dreams and tears.

I was free, but you were married,
I've had to learn to let it be,  it's your life to carry,
Even so, we couldn't let go,  though others made us guilty,
Sometimes we tried, but then we cried,
This Love we can't deny.

And so we chose our life online,
And you have your life, I have mine,
Still balancing on the big blue ball,
Trusting each other when we fall.

Another Blue Christmas

I'll have a blue Christmas without you,
I'll be so blue thinking about you,
On that tropical Isle,  you're so distant from me,
I just can't smile,  you don't spare a thought for me.

I'll have a blue Christmas for certain, 
And when that blue heartache starts hurtin'
You'll be there Christmas night,  
With your wife by your side...
But I'll have yet another Blue Christmas!

WHERE DO I FIT

Where do I fit in your busy life,
When you're still stuck with your Karmic wife,
More concerned with financial strife,
And letting silence cut like a knife?

In our online LDR,   words were once like falling stars,
Sparkles of Light filling the night,
Love and laughter, and everything right,
Dreaming of a future so bright...
NOW a choice twixt Good day and Goodnight.

We promised we'd go through this together,
While we worked on our Forever,
But sometimes in fear, you told me Never,
And text became an arduous endeavor.

Sometimes I wonder if it's real,
And I wonder what you really feel,
Is this Love the REAL Deal,
Or are we both just spinning wheels,
While waiting for the wounds to heal?

And yet I know it isn't just us,
Many Twins are on the same bus,
This journey is very hard and long,
With Karmics lulling with Siren song,
Pulling partners back into their web,
While Love of Twin is at its ebb. 

They say the DM is full of woe,
And has a long way still to go,
And so he leaves his Twin alone...

The DF has battles of her own,
But occasional chat, 
Or call on the phone,
Might keep her heart from turning to stone.

AstrandaLynn ~~COPYRIGHT 2017~~
http://poeticdream111111.blogspot.com

Sometimes I Forget

When we are alone in our online world,
I feel like I'm your favorite girl,
You respond to me as my man,
And I love you all I can.

Skype just makes it all more real,
And we don't hide the way we feel,
Your expressive eyes cannot lie,
And my smile's no longer shy.

We keep nothing from each other,
When we are online together,
You read me with just one look,
You are like an open book.

But there are times I get confused,
And my ego feels abused,
When I try to go too far,
And you remind me how things really are.

I forget you have a wife,
You tell me to get a life,
I almost beg, with you to be,
But you say it's just a fantasy.

But I have noticed recently,
Your chat shows some regret,
You tell me, sorry, I must go,
Sometimes we forget.

The Gift of Separation

Lavish your love on me from afar,
You know in your heart, we're not really apart,
But space is needed now, between you and me,
Before we can become a reality.

This pushme-pullyou game takes its toll,
And often wounds our heart and soul,
Too often now, we spoke in anger,
Misunderstood text a present danger.

Time away from chat will be good,
A time to ponder things now understood,
Creative space to play and pray,
Guarded by Angels, night and day--
They'll help us on our path to stay.

I miss you already, this is true,
My energy continues to blend with you, 
But we need time to think this through,
To heal the issues between me and you,
And even some wounds hidden from view.

This time and space for you is my gift
Please let it not widen the rift,
My love for you is ever true,
And soon I will be back with you. 

The Other Woman, Your Cyberfantasy

I'm the woman your mother warned against, and priests and preachers demanded recompense,
I'm the one society scorns, but I make you glad that you were born,
I'm the woman of your creation, fashioned of love, lust, and fascination.
I'm the one you keep as your fantasy, who'll never meet you, because of friends and family.


I'm the woman you say you want, but too often interruptions say you can't,
Making me want to scream and rant--
But, I don't...instead I get depressed, cry and mope, feeling as if there is no hope,
While you go off, blithely unaware, making it seem like you don't care.

I'm the woman who gave you her heart, with a promise we'll never part,
I'm the one that you set free, in wild, passionate sexuality,
And now in my fervent rage, I know I will never be,
Content to go back to the cage of religious morality.

I'm the woman who needs you to see that I'm not just a fantasy,
My love is true, my feelings real, though I'm not perfect as your ideal,
I live for the day you'll say and mean, OUR Love is real, not just a dream,
And you're MY woman, my heart is true--
And yes, I'll always, ever love YOU. 

Don't Forget Me

Though it's hard for me to let you go,
It's best for you, I know,
I felt your pain, tears fell like rain,
As you were torn in two.

I know this balancing of worlds,
Can drive you mad, it's true,
And I know just why you blew,
Frustrated, as can be,
You need some time, it's clear to see--
But Darling, please,
Don't forget me!

You said you're having trouble, sharing love with two,
You didn't want to burst my bubble, but I ,so well, know you,
I know this Twin Flame journey sometimes seems unreal,
But you said you just can't stop emotions that you feel--
I can't, either...I love you, too.
 
You said you love me, and that's clear,  and makes it hard for me,
You've been confused, but I can see--
You need your family, more than you need me.

So for a while...I'll try to smile, though tears be ever near,
I'll let you be, give you  space and time, knowing you're still mine,
But for now, I'll leave you alone...no chat, no text, no phone,
I'll leave all channels open to you, make it plain to see,
Just listen with your heart, and you will hear my whispered plea--
Darling, please,
Don't forget me!

By AstrandaLynn, July 10, 2012

One of These Days

One of these days, when this life is done,
And karma is finished, and we walk in the sun,
I'll take your hand, look into your eyes,
And tell you how much I've realized.

How much I missed you, not knowing you were near me,
And how I wanted to hear your voice in my heart more clearly,
How much your chats meant, and time you spent, day by day,
Loving me,  in every possible way.

It wasn't easy, just being online,
And often I felt the lack of time,
I knew you had another world,
But, still, I wanted to be your girl.

You brought out the wild woman in me,
Loving me so passionately,
I was often stunned by our feelings,
And sometimes your energy set my senses reeling--
Burning, fevered with desire,
That combination of Air and Fire.

The world did its best to keep us apart,
Cruel judgment sometimes broke my heart,
Fear made me want to run away,
But you said, Let's give it another day. 

Finally, I learned to seek within,
The Kingdom of Love, beyond all sin,
I listened to my heart, no more apart,
And Love was my Song--
It was never wrong to love my Twin. 

Twin Flame Separation

 Twin Flame Separation

Until we are clear and free of
Unhealthy dependency,
We must part, my Love,
Though it breaks my heart.

I will place no blame,
For we are the same
Mirrored face, tear-streaked,
In pain, Beloved Twin Flame.

This growth spurt hurts,
As we fall,
But time we need,
That we may heed
The Clarion Call.

This Dream we know,
As life below,
Egoes scream from fatal blow,
Karmic bondage now must go.

Its time completing now seems fleeting,
Though oft it left us broken, bleeding,
There were Seasons in the sun,
Rainbows leading to the ONE.

It's time, my dear, that we must part,
I'll always be near, in your heart--
Let the healing tears now flow,
As Feeling now breaks Logic's bow,
And Reason bows to what our hearts know:

Twin Flame Love is FOREVER!
Our time is NOW, Darling,
Speak not of NEVER.
January 24 at 8:34am

Conflicting Emotions

Thinking back over our chat last night,
I feel conflicting emotions,
Messages hiding the Light.

I am sad that you have chosen another over me,
Yet glad to know the Truth that you also Know...
That WE are ONE, for we have merged, blended heart and soul,
Forever bound, eternally whole.

It's hard to see beyond this 3-D Illusion of separation,
To feel beyond the loneliness of our Long-distance relationship,
Yet, I feel you in my Heartbeat, for you live in Our Heart.
We meet and combine our energy in realms beyond time and space,
But I so long to see your smiling face, and love you in a physical embrace.

If it takes forever, I will wait, for, that seems my fate, anyway,
But please Darling, let's stop saying Never, let's say someday,
Someday, beyond this vale of fear, we will be free to make it REAL,
To Love with Abandon, Joyfully, Finally Free, Our ReUnion to FEEL!

In Quiet Moments

You are working, I am home
Busy writing, all alone,
Skype alert shows your name,
My heart burns, love aflame.

I answer your ring, as soon I can,
Headphones on, I greet my man--
How are you honey? Working hard?

Been flat out, but now on break,
Something to eat, and my head aches.

I'm having a Coke, and eating too,
On the same wavelength again with you;
Have a rest, honey, and I will, too.

He puts the car seat back for a snooze,
After he reads the Daily News,
In my mind, I climb on his lap,
Cuddle up, and take a nap.

Words between us now are few,
Quiet sounds of "I love you."
My heart's with his, breathing slow,
He suddenly wakes, says I must go,
Back to work--
I say, I know--

I'll ring again later, bye for now.

Have a good day, honey,

Hang up the phone--
I can't, I hate to leave you alone.

It gets harder each time to say goodbye,
And there are times we almost cry,
Just one more minute, or maybe five,
And we go back to separate lives.

August 20 at 6:19am 

Twin Flame Communication

I was lonely, missing you so bad, 
Feeling your energy was driving me mad, 
I think you picked up on my feelings, as you do 
...I thought of you, and you said, How are you?

We had a nice chat then, casual, friendly,
All about work, and writing, and forums I'm on--
Twin Flames, Ascension, and UFO, now more important than events below. Religon a lost cause, I'm breaking away, suddenly closing many doors.

I think out loud, my head in a cloud, wondering what I should do
Should I write a Note, or just a blog, share the stories of me and you?
Maybe be bold, with stories old, fantastic events of my life long ago--
And you advise me, take it slow.

It's getting late, and I must go, thanks for chatting--
I say, I know.
Goodnight, honey. Bye for now.

Read more: http://adderworld.ning.com/group/writersgroup/forum/topics/twin-flame-communication#ixzz1ftJQ7gSr

People Say

People say that it's a sin-
Give him up, you can't win-
But they don't know what we know,
So we'll see how far we can go.

God has a plan that they can't see;
A perfect plan for you and me-
But...they say, God will not bless-
Judging me, they just don't see;
How all this depresses me.

How can love be a sin-
An affair between soul mates?
My heart, seeking truth, waits-
And finds the answer deep within-
Not just soul mates-
You're my Twin!

And so we compromise, somewhat sadly,
Knowing what we want so badly
May not be for quite some time,
And our love has no reason or rhyme.
No logic at all, and yet it's real,
Worth protecting with our zeal.

People say-
But I won't listen-
Un-shed tears in your eyes glisten;
In my heart I hold you near,
And take away your every fear.

People say-
Oh, go away!
Can't you see?
Oh, let us be.

If our love's a sin-
Let God decide-
The love of Twins,
We just can't hide;
And God will teach us to abide.

April 24 at 11:58pm 

Going the Distance

Some say it's only fantasy, nothing real,
But my lonely heart aches, like it won't heal;
Then the Skype alert pops up again, such fun,
And the love in his voice tells me I'm the One.

My soul mate calls from across the sea,
And tells me he's been missing me;
He says I really make his day,
We chat and flirt and laugh and play.

All too soon, he says, I must go,
Back to work-
I say, I know.
I love you honey, have a good day.
I love you, too. Chat later, goodbye.

It's getting harder, every day,
To hang up the phone, and go our way,
Back to the separate lives we live-
Knowing this is all we can give.

We have a long, hard road ahead,
With lonely nights, and tears in bed,
Longing for each other's touch,
Feeling sometimes, it's too much.

But this is the price we have to pay,
Going the distance in this way,
We never knew a love so rare,
Would be so difficult to bear.

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