I'll have a blue Christmas without you,
I'll be so blue thinking about you,
On that tropical Isle, you're so distant from me,
I just can't smile, you don't spare a thought for me.
I'll have a blue Christmas for certain,
And when that blue heartache starts hurtin'
You'll be there Christmas night,
With your wife by your side...
But I'll have yet another Blue Christmas!
Karmic judgment comes to town,
The Tower soon comes crashing down,
The Scorpio moon, while people sleep,
Beckons Psyche into the Deep...
Dark Night of Soul, Tidal Waves Roll,
Ancient Goddesses watch do keep.
Ego screams in restless dreams,
Duality still reigns supreme,
Illusions of Unity defied,
As crumbling facades of marriages die,
Mirroring the end of Karmic lies.
Kali destroys, Lilith enjoys,
While Hekate, Her magick employs,
Torch held high, lights the way,
Shows the Crossroads of the Path,
Choices to make...forgiveness or wrath.
Where do I fit in your busy life,
When you're still stuck with your Karmic wife,
More concerned with financial strife,
And letting silence cut like a knife?
In our online LDR, words were once like falling stars,
Sparkles of Light filling the night,
Love and laughter, and everything right,
Dreaming of a future so bright...
NOW a choice twixt Good day and Goodnight.
We promised we'd go through this together,
While we worked on our Forever,
But sometimes in fear, you told me Never,
And text became an arduous endeavor.
Sometimes I wonder if it's real,
And I wonder what you really feel,
Is this Love the REAL Deal,
Or are we both just spinning wheels,
While waiting for the wounds to heal?
And yet I know it isn't just us,
Many Twins are on the same bus,
This journey is very hard and long,
With Karmics lulling with Siren song,
Pulling partners back into their web,
While Love of Twin is at its ebb.
They say the DM is full of woe,
And has a long way still to go,
And so he leaves his Twin alone...
The DF has battles of her own,
But occasional chat,
Or call on the phone,
Might keep her heart from turning to stone.
AstrandaLynn ~~COPYRIGHT 2017~~
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No more excuses, no more hoops,
I'm sick and tired of endless loops,
Being led on like a dog on a leash,
While you're in your comfort zone,
Out of my reach.
It's always on your terms, not mine,
I wait here, dying on the vine,
While you feed me another line,
Why should you care...
Your life's just fine.
I'm getting older, but not any wiser,
My heart feels cold, my mind is a geyser,
The journey is hard, but loosens the Bard,
Sometimes it seems you hold all the cards.
Right from the start, it's been only online,
No way out of our paradigm,
Promises made have no say,
And life keeps getting in the way.
You said NEVER, then said Someday,
Talked of Forever, then backed away,
So nonchalant you drive me insane,
And you don't seem aware of my pain...
Watching our dreams go down the drain.
Have I been wrong all this time,
Settling for a life only online,
Am I not worth more than that,
More than just sporadic chat.
Words is all we have to keep alive the fantasy,
Or so it seems when you're away from me,
Tethered to our internet connection,
Limited in our verbal selection,
Is speaking words of love too much,
Is our friendship really enough?
When we started years ago,
I vowed to never let you go,
And when we argued, I'd always know,
That we would always be back again,
And I was more than just a friend.
But there are times I wonder now,
If I should have kept that vow,
Would our lives have been different then,
If we had stayed just casual friends,
Or did it have to be this way,
So we would come to see this day.
Loving you from afar, I only see glimpses of who you are,
And I'm on the fringes of your life,
Not knowing if you are still with your wife,
And that's a continuing source of strife.
Not sure I want to be a lifelong mystery,
Never knowing where I stand,
Afraid to speak my mind,
Because you won't admit I exist offline.
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Superficial, friendly talk,
I'm burdened so I can barely walk,
Throat Chakra blocked so I cannot speak,
Heart aches, crying makes me weak,
Words of love filled to brimming,
All I know is I must keep swimming.
Why can't we speak of how we feel,
It would make this feel more real,
Perhaps that's why you stopped telling me,
And why, tonight I'm feeling lonely,
And you still won't tell me you want me only.
