The LDR Mission

Then you accept the mission, the Council said,
With tears in my eyes, I nodded my head,
I glanced over to where he stood,
And knew in my heart,  he also would.  

We knew the journey we'd undertake,
That it wouldn't be easy and how hearts would break,
Loneliness would take its toll,
And things would be out of control.

We signed the contract with our tears,
For we knew it would be years,
Separated by distant oceans,
Oft confused by our emotions.

We would forget while on earth,
And Karma would often be our curse,
Other souls would lure us away,
Lessons to learn night and day.

But there would also be felicity,
Blessings of love and serendipity,
Family, friends,  and things of wonder,
For the little boy living Down Under.

I was 12 when you were born,
Busy learning to play French Horn,
Living in the USA,
Family, friends, on my way.

Years went by in a blur,
You grew up and married her,
Around the time I was breaking free, unaware of what was to be,

You were creating your family,

I was on a quest to discover ME.

While you were putting down your roots,

I was trying on different boots,

Trying different relationships,

Dreaming of intergalactic ships.

STILL BALANCING

Still balancing on this big blue ball,
Not sure you'll catch me if I fall,
You have your freedom,
I'm claiming mine,
Each on our own side of the
Equator line.

Honey, you're right,  nothing's for sure,
And I'm done keeping tabs,
It's all up for grabs...
I can't microplan the future.

With or without you, whatever will be,
The moment of NOW is all we can see,
I'm not looking for anyone else,
But I'm jumping down from this dusty old shelf.
You do YOU, and I'll do ME,
And someday we'll see the BEST we can BE.

Another Blue Christmas

I'll have a blue Christmas without you,
I'll be so blue thinking about you,
On that tropical Isle,  you're so distant from me,
I just can't smile,  you don't spare a thought for me.

I'll have a blue Christmas for certain, 
And when that blue heartache starts hurtin'
You'll be there Christmas night,  
With your wife by your side...
But I'll have yet another Blue Christmas!

WHERE DO I FIT

Where do I fit in your busy life,
When you're still stuck with your Karmic wife,
More concerned with financial strife,
And letting silence cut like a knife?

In our online LDR,   words were once like falling stars,
Sparkles of Light filling the night,
Love and laughter, and everything right,
Dreaming of a future so bright...
NOW a choice twixt Good day and Goodnight.

We promised we'd go through this together,
While we worked on our Forever,
But sometimes in fear, you told me Never,
And text became an arduous endeavor.

Sometimes I wonder if it's real,
And I wonder what you really feel,
Is this Love the REAL Deal,
Or are we both just spinning wheels,
While waiting for the wounds to heal?

And yet I know it isn't just us,
Many Twins are on the same bus,
This journey is very hard and long,
With Karmics lulling with Siren song,
Pulling partners back into their web,
While Love of Twin is at its ebb. 

They say the DM is full of woe,
And has a long way still to go,
And so he leaves his Twin alone...

The DF has battles of her own,
But occasional chat, 
Or call on the phone,
Might keep her heart from turning to stone.

AstrandaLynn ~~COPYRIGHT 2017~~
http://poeticdream111111.blogspot.com

Surfing

Twins surf together, in all kinds of weather--
Caught in oceans of emotions,
Boards tumbled about in the undertow,
Angry words, buttons pushed,
That they might be healed, and grow.

Sudden cloudbursts may appear,
Tears falling as rain,
But they know the rainbow's near,
As sun shines once again,
And their love keeps them here.

For a while, they can smile,
The ocean's calm, after the storm--
Quietly chatting, sharing new insight,
Dreamily cuddling through the night,
As Love keeps them safe and warm.

The Gift of Separation

Lavish your love on me from afar,
You know in your heart, we're not really apart,
But space is needed now, between you and me,
Before we can become a reality.

This pushme-pullyou game takes its toll,
And often wounds our heart and soul,
Too often now, we spoke in anger,
Misunderstood text a present danger.

Time away from chat will be good,
A time to ponder things now understood,
Creative space to play and pray,
Guarded by Angels, night and day--
They'll help us on our path to stay.

I miss you already, this is true,
My energy continues to blend with you, 
But we need time to think this through,
To heal the issues between me and you,
And even some wounds hidden from view.

This time and space for you is my gift
Please let it not widen the rift,
My love for you is ever true,
And soon I will be back with you. 

Dreaming a New Reality

One of these days, you and I, we'll look in the mirror, by and by,
And see that we made it to the other side, and have our wings so we can fly,
We'll let our breath out, with a sigh, and see just what was hidden, deep inside,
And with a joyful hug, look beside, and find the LOVE  that can no longer hide.

Tears may fall, but quickly dry, smiles and laughter will rule the day,
Karma is over, like a dream,  life's illusions, floating downstream,
Time is up, the tests are done, passed with flying colors, banners in the sun,
Earth school is over, time is transcended, and all those crazy feelings now are ended.

Yes, we had a choice, even when we heard the Voice, we could follow our hearts or not,
Seek God within, past the gates of sin imposed by stern judgment's governing rules, man-made schools,
We chose the LOVE we felt,  though pelted with stones thrown by those in power, in vaulted towers,
We listened to our hearts, knowing Nothing could keep us apart,
And though others frowned, we kept our crowns.

Now with bells chiming, it is Divine Timing, the Reign of the Dragon draws near,
The Age of Aquarius, Golden Age promised, and 2012 begins this New Year--
This time was presaged in '87, as we had glimpses then of heaven, 
Felt little twinges of 5D, lived partly within a new reality.

We fell asleep, making our fortresses deep within dreams,  the Light hurt our eyes, while War ruled the skies,
But LOVE doesn't slumber, and reawakened us in numbers,
Calling to our hearts, promising we'd no more part, and brought us to each other, ALWAYS to be together
Awakened NOW to bring to birth, the offspring of New Heaven and Earth,
Conceived by LOVE's IMMORTALITY--
Let Peace, Abundance, and Loving Oneness,  NOW be the New Reality! 

Waiting Is: Do You Grok?

I often feel like a 'Stranger in a Strange Land' as I wait for Divine Timing's command,
A long time coming, through this vale of  fears,  Life has led me to BE here,
Waiting for Reunion from different Spheres,
With Star-based Family, and Beloved Twin...
Do you Grok?  Waiting IS!

Waiting is such a pain, while my tears fall like rain,
It's been such a struggle, such a fight,
Like a shadowed plant reaching for Light,
My lonely soul often has reached for Love,
Not quite remembering my Home above.

Do you Grok?  Can you understand,
The loneliness of a woman for a man?
And not just any man will do,
For there is only ONE,
And God created Me for You.

In the Beginning, the tale is told,
 Councils of Light, planning the earth,
Sought Volunteers to undergo blindness at birth,
A veil to be dropped,  amnesia begin,
Forgetting that LOVE is Never a Sin.

And so we fell,  Paradise became Hell,
We lost our wings, and no more heard our Soul sing,
Ego reigned supreme,  and Duality's dream kept us mired,
'Til all that was left were embers of  Divine Fire.

Blindly we searched for lifetimes untold,
Waiting for Time to slowly unfold,
Knowing Somewhere, was waiting our Other Half,
In the meantime, finding solace, laughter and Love,
While we waited for a sign from Above.

And so the Twin Flame paradigm came into being,
And many hearts broke,  for they were seeing
The Beloved with another mate,
And they wondered, was it too late?

Do you Grok?  Waiting IS!
Divine Timing nearly complete,
Hearts rejoice, at last, KNOWING  they'll meet,
Star-based Family,  Beloved Twins,
Homeward bound on gossamer wings,
And as ONE our SOUL will sing!

Don't Forget Me

Though it's hard for me to let you go,
It's best for you, I know,
I felt your pain, tears fell like rain,
As you were torn in two.

I know this balancing of worlds,
Can drive you mad, it's true,
And I know just why you blew,
Frustrated, as can be,
You need some time, it's clear to see--
But Darling, please,
Don't forget me!

You said you're having trouble, sharing love with two,
You didn't want to burst my bubble, but I ,so well, know you,
I know this Twin Flame journey sometimes seems unreal,
But you said you just can't stop emotions that you feel--
I can't, either...I love you, too.
 
You said you love me, and that's clear,  and makes it hard for me,
You've been confused, but I can see--
You need your family, more than you need me.

So for a while...I'll try to smile, though tears be ever near,
I'll let you be, give you  space and time, knowing you're still mine,
But for now, I'll leave you alone...no chat, no text, no phone,
I'll leave all channels open to you, make it plain to see,
Just listen with your heart, and you will hear my whispered plea--
Darling, please,
Don't forget me!

By AstrandaLynn, July 10, 2012

The Gift of an Aching Heart

Why so much pain, as a Twin Flame,
Why do my tears fall like rain,
Feeling lost and alone, far from Home,
Emotions raw, like a newborn poem?

Is all of this just a Cosmic Joke,
Exchanging religion for another Yoke?
Twin Flame love just makes me blue,
Leaves me longing for merging with You.

They say it's a gift, and we'll never more part,
But to me, it's the gift of an aching heart,
 A double-edged sword of Inner Light,
Wielded by Angels, Gods tearing us apart,
While Karma holds on with all her Might. 

Must I find another Dream?
Just the thought makes me want to SCREAM!
Outraged, broken once again, Ego won't die--
My Soul can't fly.  

I lost my crown once, Never Again,
You gave it back to me, my Lover, my Friend,
My Fate is sealed, to Die or Ascend,
Love is my Glory, the OM, the AMEN.

You gave me the Gift of an Aching Heart,
For me, the well-spring of my Art,
With or without you, it is Your Choice,
I will go on, with my own Voice--
Knowing deep within, it wasn't a sin,
To Love you, my Twin---
And we're never apart.

Speak Not of Never

Speak not of Never,

Our love is Forever,

And it breaks my heart,

When we are apart.

The karma between us must go!

It's hard for you, I know,

But it's our destiny, our fate,

To be able to physically relate.

The day will come we'll be offline,

Our hearts connected for all time,

In sacred union, bodies and minds,

Hearts and souls, we forever bind.

Our love is strong, always true,

No one will take the place of you,

And for you, Beloved,  I will always be,

The One for whose heart, you hold the key.

Speak to me, darling, speak of forever,

Softly whisper, love me, and kiss me,

Tell me honey, tell me you missed me,

And speak no more...

Speak not of Never!

Read more: http://adderworld.ning.com/group/writersgroup/forum/topics/speak-not-of-never#ixzz1fu9g1YQe

Twin Flame Communication

I was lonely, missing you so bad, 
Feeling your energy was driving me mad, 
I think you picked up on my feelings, as you do 
...I thought of you, and you said, How are you?

We had a nice chat then, casual, friendly,
All about work, and writing, and forums I'm on--
Twin Flames, Ascension, and UFO, now more important than events below. Religon a lost cause, I'm breaking away, suddenly closing many doors.

I think out loud, my head in a cloud, wondering what I should do
Should I write a Note, or just a blog, share the stories of me and you?
Maybe be bold, with stories old, fantastic events of my life long ago--
And you advise me, take it slow.

It's getting late, and I must go, thanks for chatting--
I say, I know.
Goodnight, honey. Bye for now.

Read more: http://adderworld.ning.com/group/writersgroup/forum/topics/twin-flame-communication#ixzz1ftJQ7gSr

People Say

People say that it's a sin-
Give him up, you can't win-
But they don't know what we know,
So we'll see how far we can go.

God has a plan that they can't see;
A perfect plan for you and me-
But...they say, God will not bless-
Judging me, they just don't see;
How all this depresses me.

How can love be a sin-
An affair between soul mates?
My heart, seeking truth, waits-
And finds the answer deep within-
Not just soul mates-
You're my Twin!

And so we compromise, somewhat sadly,
Knowing what we want so badly
May not be for quite some time,
And our love has no reason or rhyme.
No logic at all, and yet it's real,
Worth protecting with our zeal.

People say-
But I won't listen-
Un-shed tears in your eyes glisten;
In my heart I hold you near,
And take away your every fear.

People say-
Oh, go away!
Can't you see?
Oh, let us be.

If our love's a sin-
Let God decide-
The love of Twins,
We just can't hide;
And God will teach us to abide.

April 24 at 11:58pm