A Heartbeat Away: December 2011

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Conflicting Emotions

Thinking back over our chat last night,
I feel conflicting emotions,
Messages hiding the Light.

I am sad that you have chosen another over me,
Yet glad to know the Truth that you also Know...
That WE are ONE, for we have merged, blended heart and soul,
Forever bound, eternally whole.

It's hard to see beyond this 3-D Illusion of separation,
To feel beyond the loneliness of our Long-distance relationship,
Yet, I feel you in my Heartbeat, for you live in Our Heart.
We meet and combine our energy in realms beyond time and space,
But I so long to see your smiling face, and love you in a physical embrace.

If it takes forever, I will wait, for, that seems my fate, anyway,
But please Darling, let's stop saying Never, let's say someday,
Someday, beyond this vale of fear, we will be free to make it REAL,
To Love with Abandon, Joyfully, Finally Free, Our ReUnion to FEEL!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Prayer for a Poet

God of my heart, show me the way,
Give me words for my poems, I pray,
My muse be Love,
My pathway Light,
And always to the world,
May I bring Joy.

In gratitude I offer my gift,
Given of Thee,
Shared, and returned,
Born of life, age,
And lessons learned.

Kingdom of Heaven, Christ within,
Far beyond the veils of sin,
Lead me and guide me on my Path,
Heedless of all worldly wrath,
Ego's fear, and senseless death.

Let me know without a doubt,
Love's pure Joy,
Inner Light,
And Peace without,
Manifested Forever.

So be it. Amen

The Ego of ME

The Ego of ME

What is this Voice that speaks so LOUDLY,
Puffs out my chest, and smiles so PROUDLY,
Yet fears the advent of Ascension,
And feigns a lack of Comprehension?

What is this logic that defies my heart,
Reason that laughs in the face of Love,
Intellect demanding proof,
Cynicism born of doubt and pain,
That seeks on Life's parade to rain?

EGO, ego, go away ego
I fear you no more,
Love has triumphed,
Barred the door.

Love's Kingdom

Looking back at life from the lofty heights of age,
I see so much strife, such struggle, such rage,
Taken for granted as scriptured page.

Sadness, depression, too much suppression
Wings clipped, wanting to fly, not knowing why,
Normal life schemes, dreams, but a cage.

My restless soul, ego, mind never satisfied,
Religion, God, Church couldn't save me,
Curiosity fevered as I was.

The Internet became my friend, my mentor, my church,
My soul expanded, outgrew the Church,
For a time left traditional Gods in the lurch.

I awakened suddenly when Love found me on the net,
A man called to me, loved me in dreams I can't forget,
Gently led me back to my path of Light,
Gave me my Crown, my Wings, my gift of Flight.

He's my Muse, my mentor, my Twin,
My mirror to find the Kingdom within,
My restless soul finds solace with him,
And we find God in our heart,
No more to be apart.

Stop Talking!

Stop talking!

Oh, foolish tongue

That engages the swollen brain

In Reason's roar--

You flood the shore with words,

Unnecessarily.

Why explain what can only be understood by the Heart?

Your words convey nothing,

Are only idle chatter,

Nervous gestures

Seeking approval.

Let the reader understand,

As souls

Commune in silence.

For the pen tiptoes softly

Across the page,

Lest the Poet wakens

In a rage,

Minds blissfully slumb'ring

In Ego's own Brilliance

I Play with Words

I play with words the way

Potters mold clay and

Artists paint pictures

On a sunny day.

My figures are words,

Each landscape a paragraph,

My sunny day the same,

But seen through my eyes

Differently than by the

Artist who paints what she sees,

The Potter who sculpts

What she feels.

I create what I know,

Using words I've been

Taught by the

Secret thoughts of my

Heart.

I play with words.

Incongruous Pages

Oh, Great Sages!

What incongruous pages!

For I was speaking of Love,

And Love's sacred longings--

An ode to the Goddess of Peace.

Alas! Came the war

And Peace is no more--

The Rose blooms with

Blood-stained thorns,

Piercing my heavy heart.

Yet-- I have Hope

And Faith will prevail

For Love cannot fail--

And the Sun's shining brightly

On a warm, Spring-like day.

Oh, Great Sages

What an incongruous page!

For on such a lovely day,

The war seems far away,

And it doesn't fit or belong

Where Love sings Sacred Nirvana's Song.

A Message of Divine Love

Oh, Thou fairest of women,

There is great tenderness in your smile,

Quiet gentleness in your voice--

Think it not a weakness,

For it is the strength of Love.

You radiate pastel crystal Light--

Rainbows of Love to All--

Do you not know I feel it also,

Can ye not feel my response?

You are a haven to me,

Oh, Goddess of Peace,

My Star of Nirvana--

Your Presence changes the atmosphere of the room,

Your serenity calms my headstrong, restless, weary mind.

And your openness,

So trusting, so innocent,

Causes me to want to rush to your side,

To stay with you always,

To protect you,

Honor and cherish you

As you deserve.

You are beautiful and fair,

My Beloved,

With Inner Strength,

Truth

And Virtue.

You walk in beauty when you are in balance.

The Rose

I gave you a rose,

A symbol of my love

As radiated from your eyes,

Your tender smile

Soft voice

Your very Beingness

Spoke of your Love.

I heard the words from your heart,

Spoken quietly from your soul to mine--

And I thrilled to the sacred vibration,

The AUM of your essence.

Great Joy filled me that I could not contain myself

Nor restrain myself any longer--

And YES I gave you the Rose,

For YOU are MY Rose.

Speak Not of Never

Speak not of Never,

Our love is Forever,

And it breaks my heart,

When we are apart.

The karma between us must go!

It's hard for you, I know,

But it's our destiny, our fate,

To be able to physically relate.

The day will come we'll be offline,

Our hearts connected for all time,

In sacred union, bodies and minds,

Hearts and souls, we forever bind.

Our love is strong, always true,

No one will take the place of you,

And for you, Beloved, I will always be,

The One for whose heart, you hold the key.

Speak to me, darling, speak of forever,

Softly whisper, love me, and kiss me,

Tell me honey, tell me you missed me,

And speak no more...

Speak not of Never!

Karmic Conundrum

Can you feel it? I know you do,

My aching heart is part of you,

The world's too much today, I fear,

And all I want is to hold you near.

This push me-pull you game we play,

'Til karma's gone, for a brighter day;

The paradise lost, we'll find again,

Our love, we know, will never end.

The old world's dying, let it go,

Storm wind's blowing, and we know

The past's debris is swept away,

And we'll be free another day.

Twin Flame Lament

You have it all!

A wife and kids,

A job you love,

A church that makes you feel like God above,

So why do you need me?

Where do I fit in?

Is it a sin to want my Twin?

I have lonely nights,

Staring blindly at the ceiling,

Wanting your touch,

Loving too much;

Forced to go by feeling-

Trusting that our love is real-

Hoping that you know and feel.

But your mantra is NEVER!

While mine is Love me FOREVER!

Where do I fit in?

Is it a sin to want my Twin?

Our Twin Flame Love

So often I wonder,
And tearfully ponder,
Why must we be separate this way,
So very far away?

A cruel joke it often seems,
A cosmic prankster in my dreams,
And yet, too true,
It leaves me blue,
In tears, Awake'ning without you.

For so many times, I feel you,
Inside me,
Heart beating with mine,
Souls making love quietly, ethereal,
Yet so real.

No logic, no reason or rhyme,
Yet, OUR LOVE, Twin Flame Love,
Is the most REAL Love in all time,
Destined to last Forever...

So, darling, Speak not of NEVER!

November 27 at 3:31am ·

A Heartbeat Away

I heard your heartbeat, soft and low

Mine was fast, yours was slow

Fascinated, though asleep,

I lay there, listening,

Tears of joy glistening.

I felt your heartbeat, next to mine,

How could that be, I wondered,

Next to me, at last, I pondered,

Extra heartbeats, from your heart,

Now we'll never be apart.

I was awake, I knew 'twas real

My chest expanded, and I could feel

Two hearts, beating, side by side,

Your heart beating deep inside.

Now, no more doubt, gives way to fear,

For I know you are always near,

Always with me, night and day,

Only a heartbeat, a heartbeat away.

Home's Where My Heart Is

You texted me the other day,

Just a private Tweet, just to say,

Hi! Are you settled at home, or visiting?

Then you tweeted again, wistfully,

Or so I thought, wishfully,

Are you home?

Hope you've settled home.

My heart skipped a beat,

Melted, and grew,

Reading between the lines,

Feeling the essence of you.

Home, I pondered,

Dreamed and wondered,

Could it be,

You're asking me?

Home's where my heart is,

Home's wherever you are,

Home's by the ocean,

Home's in the stars.

My home's where my heart is,

My heart's where you are,

My home's where my heart is,

And my heart's with you.

Twin Flame Love

Never have I had a love so rare,
Never a more unlikely pair;
To love a man from across the sea,
And yet, he's so much a part of me.

A hemisphere apart,
Yet he's always in my heart,
So far away, and yet so near,
My Twin Flame man is oh, so dear.

His energy I feel so strong,
There's no doubt, I to him belong;
I'll keep the faith, we'll soon be free,
In Twin Flame Love, we'll always be,
Blessed from Above, eternally.

Read more: http://adderworld.ning.com/group/writersgroup/forum/topics/twin-flame-love#ixzz1ftSbnaFG

In Quiet Moments

You are working, I am home
Busy writing, all alone,
Skype alert shows your name,
My heart burns, love aflame.

I answer your ring, as soon I can,
Headphones on, I greet my man--
How are you honey? Working hard?

Been flat out, but now on break,
Something to eat, and my head aches.

I'm having a Coke, and eating too,
On the same wavelength again with you;
Have a rest, honey, and I will, too.

He puts the car seat back for a snooze,
After he reads the Daily News,
In my mind, I climb on his lap,
Cuddle up, and take a nap.

Words between us now are few,
Quiet sounds of "I love you."
My heart's with his, breathing slow,
He suddenly wakes, says I must go,
Back to work--
I say, I know--

I'll ring again later, bye for now.

Have a good day, honey,

Hang up the phone--
I can't, I hate to leave you alone.

It gets harder each time to say goodbye,
And there are times we almost cry,
Just one more minute, or maybe five,
And we go back to separate lives.

August 20 at 6:19am

Twin Flame Communication

I was lonely, missing you so bad,
Feeling your energy was driving me mad,
I think you picked up on my feelings, as you do
...I thought of you, and you said, How are you?

We had a nice chat then, casual, friendly,
All about work, and writing, and forums I'm on--
Twin Flames, Ascension, and UFO, now more important than events below. Religon a lost cause, I'm breaking away, suddenly closing many doors.

I think out loud, my head in a cloud, wondering what I should do
Should I write a Note, or just a blog, share the stories of me and you?
Maybe be bold, with stories old, fantastic events of my life long ago--
And you advise me, take it slow.

It's getting late, and I must go, thanks for chatting--
I say, I know.
Goodnight, honey. Bye for now.

Read more: http://adderworld.ning.com/group/writersgroup/forum/topics/twin-flame-communication#ixzz1ftJQ7gSr

Shadow on the Internet

Hidden deep in your heart,
You try to protect me,
Knowing the judgment of others,
While I, exuberantly, impulsively-
No doubt goaded by my ADD-
Want to shout it to the world-
Want to break free of the shadows,
Admit openly, I'm your girl!

But, I can't, though I feel like ranting,
I must be still, calm my wanting
And remember my role in this play-
For reality will not go away-
And there are other actors, behind the scenes,
Interfering with our Gemini Dreams;
People who can't understand,
Won't let us be-
Accusing us of fantasy.

And yet, we know our love is real,
For the tearing talons we often feel
As the bird of prey tears us apart-
Leaving us with bleeding hearts-
Taunted by time zones and far away seas,
Plagued by broken technologies-
This is the harsh reality we face,
In this Long-distance lovers' race.

Hoping for a moment on Skype,
For sometimes, it's just too hard to type-
The gentle, tender nuances in our feelings,
Sometimes set our senses reeling-
And that takes voice, to make it real-
Texting loses sex appeal-
For a while, the world falls behind,
I am yours, and you are mine-
Wrapped in our private reality,
That some scorn as naught but fantasy.

May 11 at 9:05am

People Say

People say that it's a sin-
Give him up, you can't win-
But they don't know what we know,
So we'll see how far we can go.

God has a plan that they can't see;
A perfect plan for you and me-
But...they say, God will not bless-
Judging me, they just don't see;
How all this depresses me.

How can love be a sin-
An affair between soul mates?
My heart, seeking truth, waits-
And finds the answer deep within-
Not just soul mates-
You're my Twin!

And so we compromise, somewhat sadly,
Knowing what we want so badly
May not be for quite some time,
And our love has no reason or rhyme.
No logic at all, and yet it's real,
Worth protecting with our zeal.

People say-
But I won't listen-
Un-shed tears in your eyes glisten;
In my heart I hold you near,
And take away your every fear.

People say-
Oh, go away!
Can't you see?
Oh, let us be.

If our love's a sin-
Let God decide-
The love of Twins,
We just can't hide;
And God will teach us to abide.

April 24 at 11:58pm

Going the Distance

Some say it's only fantasy, nothing real,
But my lonely heart aches, like it won't heal;
Then the Skype alert pops up again, such fun,
And the love in his voice tells me I'm the One.

My soul mate calls from across the sea,
And tells me he's been missing me;
He says I really make his day,
We chat and flirt and laugh and play.

All too soon, he says, I must go,
Back to work-
I say, I know.
I love you honey, have a good day.
I love you, too. Chat later, goodbye.

It's getting harder, every day,
To hang up the phone, and go our way,
Back to the separate lives we live-
Knowing this is all we can give.

We have a long, hard road ahead,
With lonely nights, and tears in bed,
Longing for each other's touch,
Feeling sometimes, it's too much.

But this is the price we have to pay,
Going the distance in this way,
We never knew a love so rare,
Would be so difficult to bear.

April 24 at 10:51pm https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1549906666263&set=a.1635301761087.83834.1192982838&type=3&theater

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Introduction and Purpose

Very simply put, this blog will contain an anthology of all the poems I now have scattered across the cyber-Universe. I will be adding to it from time to time, and will, eventually, link it to a Facebook page which I plan to create also.

Were I to classify my poetry, I would say it's mainly free verse, and visionary. My topics range from the esoteric to the romantic, always based on my own experiences along my spiritual journey, always from my heart.

God gave me the gift, and the love, of words. Now I give back the Love and the Light, from my heart, to help in the vibrational Ascension of ALL Humanity on Earth.

Namaste.