One of These Days

One of these days, when this life is done,
And karma is finished, and we walk in the sun,
I'll take your hand, look into your eyes,
And tell you how much I've realized.

How much I missed you, not knowing you were near me,
And how I wanted to hear your voice in my heart more clearly,
How much your chats meant, and time you spent, day by day,
Loving me,  in every possible way.

It wasn't easy, just being online,
And often I felt the lack of time,
I knew you had another world,
But, still, I wanted to be your girl.

You brought out the wild woman in me,
Loving me so passionately,
I was often stunned by our feelings,
And sometimes your energy set my senses reeling--
Burning, fevered with desire,
That combination of Air and Fire.

The world did its best to keep us apart,
Cruel judgment sometimes broke my heart,
Fear made me want to run away,
But you said, Let's give it another day. 

Finally, I learned to seek within,
The Kingdom of Love, beyond all sin,
I listened to my heart, no more apart,
And Love was my Song--
It was never wrong to love my Twin. 

The World Cannot See

Though the world cannot see, You belong to Me,
Our connection, invisible though it may be,
Forged of unbreakable bonds of Love, from Eternity,
Is as REAL as it feels...Not just a Fantasy.

We have transcended the rules and judgments of man,
We live by the laws of  LOVE,
Judged only by the  ONE Above---
We live According to Our Plan.

I am in You, as You are in Me,
We share our heart and soul,
As ONE, complete and whole,
One LOVE Forever,
Life ceasing Never.  

I am Yours, as You are Mine,
Even Now, beyond all Time,
Far beyond the 3D earth,
A New World Dawns, as we give birth---
And Our Love... Twin Flame  LOVE IS Heaven on Earth.

Where Is Home?

Where is Home,  what is the view,
Am I alone, or am I with You,
Did I make it to Heaven, or did I Ascend,
Am I with you, my Lover, my Friend?

Was I banished, stuck in 3D,
My life unfinished, dreams still to be,
Was there still hope, or naught but despair,
Did anyone want me, did anyone care?

It seemed too late, and I was too old,
My broken heart was hardened and cold,
The wings of my soul lay tattered and torn,
Right where I crashed, before Love could be born.
 
Suddenly, I choked, in the midst of a scream,
And I awoke, for it was all just a dream,
Another illusion, delusion of fear--
I take a deep breath, and feel You near.

Love's transfusion expands my heart,
Light inspires words and art,
My Dream Lives,
And we never will part.

By AstrandaLynn, June 14, 2012

The Gift of an Aching Heart

Why so much pain, as a Twin Flame,
Why do my tears fall like rain,
Feeling lost and alone, far from Home,
Emotions raw, like a newborn poem?

Is all of this just a Cosmic Joke,
Exchanging religion for another Yoke?
Twin Flame love just makes me blue,
Leaves me longing for merging with You.

They say it's a gift, and we'll never more part,
But to me, it's the gift of an aching heart,
 A double-edged sword of Inner Light,
Wielded by Angels, Gods tearing us apart,
While Karma holds on with all her Might. 

Must I find another Dream?
Just the thought makes me want to SCREAM!
Outraged, broken once again, Ego won't die--
My Soul can't fly.  

I lost my crown once, Never Again,
You gave it back to me, my Lover, my Friend,
My Fate is sealed, to Die or Ascend,
Love is my Glory, the OM, the AMEN.

You gave me the Gift of an Aching Heart,
For me, the well-spring of my Art,
With or without you, it is Your Choice,
I will go on, with my own Voice--
Knowing deep within, it wasn't a sin,
To Love you, my Twin---
And we're never apart.

Lightworker: Part 1

It's nobody's fault, we planned it that day,
In a Cosmic Council far, far away,
But did we know it would hurt this way?

I was first to earth, to be born,
Leaving our souls tattered and torn,
I was born long before you,
Twelve years before you were due.

When you were born, I was in school,
Playing French horn, and following rules,
Twelve years later, I was a wife,
Well-established in my life.

Twelve more years swiftly flew,
And I think I dreamed of you--
My soul mate contract then was done,
But your marriage had just begun.

After that, I lived in a daze,
Depression kept me in a haze,
Til in my 40's I awoke,
As something deep within me broke.

I was free, learning to fly,
Feet on the ground, head in the sky,
Dreams of space ships, and a loving ET,
And my best friend and mentor was Cherokee.

Working with crystals, traveling Light,
Learning to meditate, day and night,
Transmuting energy, calmed by the sea,
I was transformed to a different ME.

Twin Flame Journey

What were we thinking, coming to earth,
Did we know we'd be separated by birth,
So far away , with a gap in our age,
Did we feel the beginning of helpless rage?

Did we promise that we'd meet someday,
But on separate paths,  begin to stray,
Away from the Love that was once so strong,
Was it Fate that made us long for our Twin hearts' song?

The day finally came, with clarion call, we heard the song from our hearts,
I was free to come to you, but there were others keeping us apart,
Family, friends, church, all disapproved, of the Love beginning to bloom--

And Guilt had me crying in my room.

But we couldn't stay away, even knowing the price we'd pay,
Our passion for each other grew, as the Love that we once knew,
Infused our beings, body and soul, and made our wand'ring, lonely hearts whole.

All was well, in our paradigm, but it was still just a matter of time,
Obstacles in our path refused to budge, and there were some who continued to judge--
I'd get scared and run away, but you called me back the very next day,
Waiting patiently for me, you'd shake your head, smile, and say you loved me.

One fateful day, we were caught, and our Love suddenly became naught,
You tried to brush me off as just a friend, and then we tried to make it end,
As you tried to make amends--
I felt hurt, betrayed that day, but still we couldn't stay away.
And now I know we're more than friends, and our Love will never end.

If I Die Tomorrow

If I die tomorrow, or ascend, would you miss me, my lover, my friend,
Would you regret we never had a chance to meet, to dance, or develop our romance
Or curse the gods that kept us apart right to the end?

Would you cry, or mourn for me, or be happy to be free,
Then classify me as just a fantasy, soon to be just a memory,
Of a woman from across the sea, whose only plea was, just love me?

When it's too late to say the words, will sorrow pierce your heart like swords,
If, in your grieving, you can hear softly whispered words from another sphere,
I would tell you in your heart, I never wanted us to be apart,
Never was your choice, never mine, fear kept you from me, until we ran out of time.

And yet, I understand, my dear, the choices difficult to bear, you made for living in your zone,
Leaving me heartbroken and alone.

Can I Let You BE, Set Us Free?

Maybe the labels don't fit anymore, maybe they never did.
Twin Flame, Soul Mate, ALL Love in the end, my friend?
My friend? My Best Friend? Lover and Friend?

Can I let you go, let our relationship dissolve,
Let our Love evolve--
Let our Passion devolve back into friendship?

If I do, will it be better for you, for me,
Set us both free?
Will you still remember me?

Can I let you BE, set us FREE?
If I do, will it be better for you, for me?
No longer intimate, no more guilty fantasy--
Openly friends on Facebook-- and look,
No more "Shadow on the Internet"-- Just ME!!