Our LDR World

So, is this what we have, my love,
Is this our chosen way,
To stay in our LDR world,
Until another day?

Is it fear or obligation that keeps us so far away,
Or was it fate that sent me here too fast,
A test to see if our Love would last,
Separated by oceans and hemispheres,
Past lives, remembered, in dreams and tears.

I was free, but you were married,
I've had to learn to let it be,  it's your life to carry,
Even so, we couldn't let go,  though others made us guilty,
Sometimes we tried, but then we cried,
This Love we can't deny.

And so we chose our life online,
And you have your life, I have mine,
Still balancing on the big blue ball,
Trusting each other when we fall.

Sometimes I Forget

When we are alone in our online world,
I feel like I'm your favorite girl,
You respond to me as my man,
And I love you all I can.

Skype just makes it all more real,
And we don't hide the way we feel,
Your expressive eyes cannot lie,
And my smile's no longer shy.

We keep nothing from each other,
When we are online together,
You read me with just one look,
You are like an open book.

But there are times I get confused,
And my ego feels abused,
When I try to go too far,
And you remind me how things really are.

I forget you have a wife,
You tell me to get a life,
I almost beg, with you to be,
But you say it's just a fantasy.

But I have noticed recently,
Your chat shows some regret,
You tell me, sorry, I must go,
Sometimes we forget.

The Promise

From this moment on, I promise to listen to you, my Heart,
And to follow you, to no more be apart,
I promise to commit myself to my Twin, to my Divine Spark,
To always be a light in the dark,
Lighting the candles with the Light,
Keeping our Love ever bright.

I commit myself 100 percent, in spite of every outer event,
Knowing our love will keep us bound, to the happiness we've found,
Trusting that when the time is right, you will come to me, day or night,
And I'll be ready at that time, when you call me,  Come, be mine! 
The time of waiting now is o'er, and we're together ever more,
My promise to you now is sure--
No more will I say Nevermore. 

Surfing

Twins surf together, in all kinds of weather--
Caught in oceans of emotions,
Boards tumbled about in the undertow,
Angry words, buttons pushed,
That they might be healed, and grow.

Sudden cloudbursts may appear,
Tears falling as rain,
But they know the rainbow's near,
As sun shines once again,
And their love keeps them here.

For a while, they can smile,
The ocean's calm, after the storm--
Quietly chatting, sharing new insight,
Dreamily cuddling through the night,
As Love keeps them safe and warm.

Bye for Now

Sometimes I miss you more than I can say, but not today,
That burning, yearning feeling is going away,
The ache in my throat from un-shed tears, can wait another day,
I seem to be detaching from my addiction to you,
At one time, that idea would have made me blue.

Detaching, so I've been told, is the only way that we can grow,
And, if I may be so bold, it's the only way that we will know,
If we really want to be, friends and lovers, you and me,
Time away from chat is good, too much between us was misunderstood,
I was frustrated, angry and sad, and all my clinging was driving you mad. 

So I'll stay away a while, sending you messages in my poems,
Leaving your heart a wistful smile, loving you, missing home,
Focused on you, for a time, long enough to write this rhyme,
Then back to my room , my lonely vow--
 See you soon, bye for now.

The Gift of Separation

Lavish your love on me from afar,
You know in your heart, we're not really apart,
But space is needed now, between you and me,
Before we can become a reality.

This pushme-pullyou game takes its toll,
And often wounds our heart and soul,
Too often now, we spoke in anger,
Misunderstood text a present danger.

Time away from chat will be good,
A time to ponder things now understood,
Creative space to play and pray,
Guarded by Angels, night and day--
They'll help us on our path to stay.

I miss you already, this is true,
My energy continues to blend with you, 
But we need time to think this through,
To heal the issues between me and you,
And even some wounds hidden from view.

This time and space for you is my gift
Please let it not widen the rift,
My love for you is ever true,
And soon I will be back with you. 

The Other Woman, Your Cyberfantasy

I'm the woman your mother warned against, and priests and preachers demanded recompense,
I'm the one society scorns, but I make you glad that you were born,
I'm the woman of your creation, fashioned of love, lust, and fascination.
I'm the one you keep as your fantasy, who'll never meet you, because of friends and family.


I'm the woman you say you want, but too often interruptions say you can't,
Making me want to scream and rant--
But, I don't...instead I get depressed, cry and mope, feeling as if there is no hope,
While you go off, blithely unaware, making it seem like you don't care.

I'm the woman who gave you her heart, with a promise we'll never part,
I'm the one that you set free, in wild, passionate sexuality,
And now in my fervent rage, I know I will never be,
Content to go back to the cage of religious morality.

I'm the woman who needs you to see that I'm not just a fantasy,
My love is true, my feelings real, though I'm not perfect as your ideal,
I live for the day you'll say and mean, OUR Love is real, not just a dream,
And you're MY woman, my heart is true--
And yes, I'll always, ever love YOU. 

Circles of Love

Like ripples on a pond, sparkling in the morning sun,
The Love we share radiates outwardly, until we are One;
It begins from my heart, as I send it to him, and for a while,
We play with the energy that we feel, my Twin and I,
Making more Love, with radiant Smiles, soaring through the skies.

Happy minutes we while away, as we chatter, flirt and play,
Too soon, I know we must go away,  to separate worlds, for another day;
But we'll bask in the Love we share, making life easier to bear,
And the Love and Light we'll share, with family and friends that we love there.

And so the Love and Light continue to go from each who receives it, soul to soul,
Making the day brighter, as it grows, and circles the earth from pole to pole,
Finally it ripples back to me, through the bond of Twin and Me,
And with happiness untold,  we meet again, at Love's door,
Sending out our ripples of gold,  Circles of Love, forevermore. 

Waiting Is: Do You Grok?

I often feel like a 'Stranger in a Strange Land' as I wait for Divine Timing's command,
A long time coming, through this vale of  fears,  Life has led me to BE here,
Waiting for Reunion from different Spheres,
With Star-based Family, and Beloved Twin...
Do you Grok?  Waiting IS!

Waiting is such a pain, while my tears fall like rain,
It's been such a struggle, such a fight,
Like a shadowed plant reaching for Light,
My lonely soul often has reached for Love,
Not quite remembering my Home above.

Do you Grok?  Can you understand,
The loneliness of a woman for a man?
And not just any man will do,
For there is only ONE,
And God created Me for You.

In the Beginning, the tale is told,
 Councils of Light, planning the earth,
Sought Volunteers to undergo blindness at birth,
A veil to be dropped,  amnesia begin,
Forgetting that LOVE is Never a Sin.

And so we fell,  Paradise became Hell,
We lost our wings, and no more heard our Soul sing,
Ego reigned supreme,  and Duality's dream kept us mired,
'Til all that was left were embers of  Divine Fire.

Blindly we searched for lifetimes untold,
Waiting for Time to slowly unfold,
Knowing Somewhere, was waiting our Other Half,
In the meantime, finding solace, laughter and Love,
While we waited for a sign from Above.

And so the Twin Flame paradigm came into being,
And many hearts broke,  for they were seeing
The Beloved with another mate,
And they wondered, was it too late?

Do you Grok?  Waiting IS!
Divine Timing nearly complete,
Hearts rejoice, at last, KNOWING  they'll meet,
Star-based Family,  Beloved Twins,
Homeward bound on gossamer wings,
And as ONE our SOUL will sing!

Don't Forget Me

Though it's hard for me to let you go,
It's best for you, I know,
I felt your pain, tears fell like rain,
As you were torn in two.

I know this balancing of worlds,
Can drive you mad, it's true,
And I know just why you blew,
Frustrated, as can be,
You need some time, it's clear to see--
But Darling, please,
Don't forget me!

You said you're having trouble, sharing love with two,
You didn't want to burst my bubble, but I ,so well, know you,
I know this Twin Flame journey sometimes seems unreal,
But you said you just can't stop emotions that you feel--
I can't, either...I love you, too.
 
You said you love me, and that's clear,  and makes it hard for me,
You've been confused, but I can see--
You need your family, more than you need me.

So for a while...I'll try to smile, though tears be ever near,
I'll let you be, give you  space and time, knowing you're still mine,
But for now, I'll leave you alone...no chat, no text, no phone,
I'll leave all channels open to you, make it plain to see,
Just listen with your heart, and you will hear my whispered plea--
Darling, please,
Don't forget me!

By AstrandaLynn, July 10, 2012

One of These Days

One of these days, when this life is done,
And karma is finished, and we walk in the sun,
I'll take your hand, look into your eyes,
And tell you how much I've realized.

How much I missed you, not knowing you were near me,
And how I wanted to hear your voice in my heart more clearly,
How much your chats meant, and time you spent, day by day,
Loving me,  in every possible way.

It wasn't easy, just being online,
And often I felt the lack of time,
I knew you had another world,
But, still, I wanted to be your girl.

You brought out the wild woman in me,
Loving me so passionately,
I was often stunned by our feelings,
And sometimes your energy set my senses reeling--
Burning, fevered with desire,
That combination of Air and Fire.

The world did its best to keep us apart,
Cruel judgment sometimes broke my heart,
Fear made me want to run away,
But you said, Let's give it another day. 

Finally, I learned to seek within,
The Kingdom of Love, beyond all sin,
I listened to my heart, no more apart,
And Love was my Song--
It was never wrong to love my Twin. 

The World Cannot See

Though the world cannot see, You belong to Me,
Our connection, invisible though it may be,
Forged of unbreakable bonds of Love, from Eternity,
Is as REAL as it feels...Not just a Fantasy.

We have transcended the rules and judgments of man,
We live by the laws of  LOVE,
Judged only by the  ONE Above---
We live According to Our Plan.

I am in You, as You are in Me,
We share our heart and soul,
As ONE, complete and whole,
One LOVE Forever,
Life ceasing Never.  

I am Yours, as You are Mine,
Even Now, beyond all Time,
Far beyond the 3D earth,
A New World Dawns, as we give birth---
And Our Love... Twin Flame  LOVE IS Heaven on Earth.

Can I Let You BE, Set Us Free?

Maybe the labels don't fit anymore, maybe they never did.
Twin Flame, Soul Mate, ALL Love in the end, my friend?
My friend? My Best Friend? Lover and Friend?

Can I let you go, let our relationship dissolve,
Let our Love evolve--
Let our Passion devolve back into friendship?

If I do, will it be better for you, for me,
Set us both free?
Will you still remember me?

Can I let you BE, set us FREE?
If I do, will it be better for you, for me?
No longer intimate, no more guilty fantasy--
Openly friends on Facebook-- and look,
No more "Shadow on the Internet"-- Just ME!!

Unrequited Obsession

It often seems so one-sided,
Like my love is unrequited,
It's not my fault he's in his situation,
But I'm the one who gets limited communication.

Backburnered, put on a shelf, just an afterthought,
Sometimes I feel like our love is coming to naught,
Out of sight, out of mind, oblivious and blind,
Focused totally on his world--
Like I am just his fantasy girl. 

They tell me to wait and work on myself---
How long can I live on somebody's shelf,
Like I'm just another possession--
This love is feeling like an obsession!

Time Traveling

Reaching for you across time and space,
I long to hold you in my embrace,
Content to even touch your face,
Feeling you in my sacred place.

The veil gets thinner every day,
As I meditate and pray,
Yet sometimes in loneliness, I sigh--
You answer me with primal cry,
Telepathing, with all your might,
Let me hold you close tonight!

In our dream, content at last,
I come to you, as in the past,
You welcome me into your arms,
Keeping me safe and warm.

In our dream, we sleep tonight,
Holding each other close and tight,
Hearts beat as One, as I silently pray,
The rising sun won't send me away--
Your last words to me are
My love, someday--

You stir in your sleep, reaching for me--
But it is dawn,
And I am gone. 

Best Friends Forever

Enjoyed our chat,
So glad we're back!
We never can stay away,
Too much longer than a day.

Whether a cloud-burst or hurricane,
You wait patiently, out of the rain,
While I try to cool my brain,
And get off the coaster train.

You always know when to call,
And when to catch me when I fall,
Sometimes I cry because I'm blue,
Sometimes because I fear I hurt you.
But without a word, you whisper, I love you.

We have something special, you and I,
A friendship that will never die,
From loving hearts that cannot lie--

Best Friends Forever,
Love ceasing Never!

To Choose Love

Love is a feeling,
Also a choice,
Kept in the heart,
Until given voice.

Once it is spoken,
It's time to choose--
My heart-felt choice,
Is to always love you.

Just Friends

Let's stay friends...
The dreaded words
Cut through my heart like two-edged swords.
I love you very much, but you must move on--
To me it feels like love is gone!
But, you're right, I must go on.

This roller coaster train
has me going insane!
Twin Flame or not,
It has to stop!

Forget the WE,
I have to find ME!
I lost myself in YOU,
In a DREAM that isn't coming True.

My senses are reeling,
I need time for healing,
To be just friends, I don't know how,
And so, my love, Goodbye for now.

Twin Flame Merge

In sacred meditation,
We merge, become One,
We are connected--
Hara to hara, heart to heart,
No more, ever, shall we part.

I feel you tugging on the cord,
Connected to my chest--
I hold you close,
Your hair I ruffle, while you rest.

Tears begin to stream down my face,
Love fills my heart,
As Light floods our sacred space.

Silent Insight

In Zen meditation's silent night,
Sitting Zazen, I see the Light,
I hear the beating of your heart,
And know we'll never be apart.
Twin Flame Lovers, friends forever,
Our connection can't be severed,
Though the world gets in our way,
The path gets clearer every day,
As we meditate and pray.
Live and love, and have no fear,
It's all an illusion, this vale of tears,
And joyous insight, in darkest night,
Reveals the dawning of Love and Light.
We'll be together, you and I,
As One, United, We'll reach for the Sky,
Wings unfurled, soaring so high,
Vibrations of Love without condition,
Carry Us Home, completing our mission.