MUSINGS OF A RESTLESS MIND

With the Tarot I did play, the card of Death was the Card of the Day,
And my inner feelings all held sway,
 Queen Hecate's Torch, a flaming ray,
Goddess of the Crossroads, leading the way,
Up from the dark to the Light of Day. 

Death is Life, and naught to fear,
A lesson from the Wheel of the Year,
Circling ever, ever near,
Sun and Moon, Love is here.

Decisions and choices, too many voices,
Lost in confusion, drowned in delusion,
Was it all just an illusion,
Holographic illustration, life a maze of endless frustration?

What are the answers, will they ever show,
As round and round the Wheel I go,
The endless Quest gives me no rest,
My maniac Will to know.  

AstrandaLynn~~COPYRIGHT 2016~~

http://poeticdream111111.blogspot.com

Musings In The Night

I trust because I have no choice,
It's just I feel I've lost my voice,
Waiting for too long,
I feel I've lost my song.

Fingers softened by the years,
Guitar strings rusted by falling tears,
A woman feels the weight of age,
Long-lost dreams cry out in rage...
Tear drops fall on poet's page.

My life's chaotic, my mind's a mess,
Apartment's a wreck, I must confess,
Overwhelmed with clutter, even worse,
I seem to be moving, but stuck in reverse.

Revisiting places I thought were gone forever,
Newly discovered, merely buried, hidden Never,
For days I slept in dreamless nightmares,
Now my ego arises screaming rage,
My mirror shows me no wiser with age.

Somewhere I lost ME, sometime ago,
My voice was gone, along with my song,
Captive, longing to be FREE, not on a shelf,
The cage was my own doing, not anyone else,
And I have the key, to unlock Myself.

I've felt like a fake, dancing at a Masque,
Tripping and falling, failing my Task,
Blaming the world, upbringing, and Love,
Ever afraid to face the Gods Above.

Queen Hecate calls me from my sleep,
Her wolves, howling, make me weep,
Her torch held high, lights up the sky,
Her Call to me,  I can't deny.

The balance I seek lies within,
The path of Soul is not a sin,
Ever leading to my Twin,
But I must be ready to begin.

The Wheel of the year completing its march,
December will complete the arc,
And soon a New Year will make its mark,
As I find my way back from the dark. 

AstrandaLynn~~Copyright 2016~~

http://poeticdream111111.blogspot.com

Core Dump

Light at the end of the tunnel brightens,
So why am I feeling so frightened,
All my insecurities haunt me, not really gone,
I thought they were, now I can't go on.

Lying to myself, lying to you,
Too many lies making me blue,
Depressed, too stressed, not me at all,
Losing my balance on the Big Blue Ball,
And you are working, not hearing my call.

That pushme-pullyou game aflame,
Burning again, no one's to blame,
My head aches from too much thinking,
My heart breaks, my faith is shrinking,
If I were a drinker, I'd be drinking.

My Muse is back, but drowning in sorrow,
I have no faith in my tomorrow,
My mind wanders willy-nilly,
My ego, the brat, is driving me silly!

Is this normal,  to feel this way,
The darkness deepening before the New Day,
Could this be Dark Night of the Soul,
Making me want to crawl back in the hole,
Deep in the Abyss, longing for my True Love's kiss?

AstrandaLynn~~Copyright 2016~~
http://poeticdream111111.blogspot.com

TRUSTING OUR LOVE

It doesn't matter what I think,  doesn't matter what you do,
We're separate, but equal, and I'm in love with you,
I know the distance sometimes gets you down,
But, honey, you know I'll never let you down.

Six years ago, when I met you,  I'm not sure we knew,
How it would affect us, or what we should try to do,
Conflicting voices told me, don't stay, let him go,
But my heart always whispered, they don't really know.

No one else knows our heart, or why they can't keep us apart,
Our connection keeps us strong, we know there's no right or wrong,
The Love we feel is Very REAL, we know it lasts forever,
At last,  together, we can relax,  and speak no more of never.  

Twin Flame Angels

You've been working so hard, my love,
I wish I could be there, behind your chair,
Like an angel, hovering in the air...

Perhaps I am. 

You are so tired, you say, it's been a busy day,
If I was there, I'd kiss your neck,
Massage your shoulders, make your pain go away...

Perhaps I have. 

Now as you sleep,  in my heart, your essence I keep,
Your beauty, in slumber, makes me weep,
My heart feels warm, expands with Love...

Perhaps I'm your angel, watching from above.

My vibration feels lighter, my wings unfurled,
For a moment, timeless, I touch your world,
A smile inside me grows, bright and warm,
Soft, tender, contented, rests in Love's arm...

Perhaps, for a moment, safe from all harm.

AstrandaLynn~~COPYRIGHT 2016~~

SOMEDAY UNITED

Someday, when we're old and gray,
One of us will fly away,
Cross the sea, far from home,
Far from all we've ever known.

The Equator no longer will be,
A boundary twixt you and me,
Our worlds and lives we'll blend,
Knowing our love will never end.

Maybe I will be the one,
Crossing the ocean, all alone,
With my laptop, tablet, and mobile phone,
Snapping photos on my way,
Chatting with you night and day.

Or maybe you will come to me,
Letting me know that you are free,
And both of us blessed by family,
Knowing from NOW on, we will be,
Merged and united, physically.

Bittersweet

Bittersweet, the bond of love,
Bound together, by Angels above,
Partners sharing a life online,
In the NOW zone, all is fine.

We have a happy life online,
I am yours, and you are mine,
But sometimes, ego comes to life,
Reminds me of unsettled strife.

Dreams are shattered when I see,
We are separate, physically,
Distance pulling us apart,
Others tugging at our heart.

Bittersweet, this Twin Flame love,
Sent to bind us from above,
Obligations chain us here,
In 3D matrix, doubt and fear.

Confusion rains on our parade,
As we endure life's masquerade,
It's hard to know, sometimes, what's true,
And too much Facebook makes me blue.

I wonder, can I trust my heart,
When forces keep us far apart,
Is our connection strong enough,
To keep us together when things get rough?

What if this is all we get,
Our online world, our safety net,
Will our life be bittersweet,
If we never chance to meet?

AstrandaLynn~~~COPYRIGHT 2015~~~